CNY 2006
It's the first day of the lunar new year and I'm just back home from visiting. The plus side is that I'm now alot richer than I was yesterday. The downside is that I've found this CNY rather depressing. Despite the dog year finding me in new, exciting circumstances - new home, new job, new independence... the intense focus on family over the CNY period leaves me thoughtfully retarded down a spiral.
And I don't understand it... and after so many years I thought I'd have worked right through it... but even with all the pretense and abuse, I guess I do miss them sometimes, and I wonder what if they worked out.
I'm not completely without perspective, and I do believe
that things happens for a reason
that we are the creators of our own circumstances
that things change and the rest of life moves right along...
but I guess that is every human's struggle between heart & mind.
And I don't understand it... and after so many years I thought I'd have worked right through it... but even with all the pretense and abuse, I guess I do miss them sometimes, and I wonder what if they worked out.
I'm not completely without perspective, and I do believe
that things happens for a reason
that we are the creators of our own circumstances
that things change and the rest of life moves right along...
but I guess that is every human's struggle between heart & mind.
posted by paul at 5:15 PM
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